Needle Drama

My youngest son, Matthew, had surgery on both of his feet this morning. I was a little nervous about going back to the hospital where I had my mastectomy. I haven't been back there since that surgery- it's been 1 year, minus 4 days. But, things were ok until we got ready to go home. We were in the recovery room, and the nurse went to remove his IV, and as soon as she removed the bandage and I saw that IV, I got the sickest feeling in my stomach. I got an instant hot flash, and really had to concentrate to not pass out. It's like I had absolutely no control over how I reacted. I guess I can understand why that would happen - there have been so many surgeries for me this past year, and all of that chemo - which all relates to IV needles. My mind and body were just reacting to that.

I wonder how long it will be before I can see an IV needle without getting sick and panicky.