An explanation...

Why Foob? I had a double mastectomy, and at the time, the plastic surgeon put "expanders" under the muscles in my chest. Every 2-3 weeks, they were filled with more saline, in preparation for my reconstructive surgery. They were very full and hard. Uncomfortable. One time, one of my sons gave me a hug and then said "Your foobs are hard!" Hee, hee, hee! My kids have this endearing habit of combining words. So, "Foobs" are fake boobs. Which I will still have, even after the reconstruction.

Foob Babe - that would be me!
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Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Just Gotta Get This off of My Chest...

I want my real boobs back. I am so tired of fake boobs.
I hate that I can't ever forget that I have fake boobs.
I hate that they are perfectly round.
I hate looking at myself in the mirror every day.
I hate how ugly the scars are.
I hate that I can't ever sleep on my stomach.
I hate that I don't sleep well, because I have to keep turning over because my chest hurts and is uncomfortable.
I hate that bras are so uncomfortable to wear.
I hate that I have to wear a bra.
I HATE that I can't feel anything when my husband touches me.
I hate how numb my chest is - and it's NEVER going to get better. Ever!
I hate boobs. I can't believe mine tried to kill me. Is it because I was never happy with them? To think that I've always wanted a boob job! I just want my real boobs back.


  1. Kara, what a great post ... I read it out loud to my husband.

    No one ever shares the negative side of foobs ... thanks for sharing.

  2. I appreciate your honesty! You teach so much by sharing your story. I hope you realize what an inspiration you are....and I only know you through the internet! I can't imagine how you have affected all those you know personally!

  3. That's it Kara. Don't hold back- tell us how you really feel! It's about time! I've listened to you for a year, and it is very seldom that you "bitch". Good for you! You deserve to yell all of this from the roof! Just so you know, because of you I stopped complaining about my boobs, yes they sag now and are not what I "wish I had"- you know the two of us have talked for years about having boob jobs together! I now just think- how VERY selfish of me! Thank you God for what you have givien me. Love you sis!
    By the way- you do look great. I know its not the same, and you know I've seen all the uglyest parts. BUT, the scars will fade and when we are 80 you will be laughing your guts out at me while I roll mine up and tuck them in - miss perky!